Monday, March 25, 2013

Mount Everest starts to move.


    There's a situation that was placed in my lap several years         ago. A situation that I had deemed "Impossible". You know     how people say "prayer can move mountains"? Yeah well,       this situation is my Mount Everest. So big, that for a while, I    completely stopped praying for it. I lost faith. I put God in        this box and said "I believe you can do this, but I doubt that     you're going to because, who am I?". I didn't realize that God  was in the middle of answering that prayer, and even though  I was always taught that God does things in His time, and not mine, I gave up hope.                                                                       
      Well, over the past several months, God has shown me         that He is working, and today it's like He grabbed onto me to  say "Yes, it has taken a REALLY long time, but all these            things had to happen before I REALLY start to answer the        prayer! This is just the beginning!".  Don't get me wrong, I        know that this situation is only going to get worse before it       gets better, but now I know that God is on my side.  What an     awesome feeling it is to finally understand that!                          
       I don't claim to be the most spiritual person. I know my    walk and talk don't match.  I  won't make excuses, but I will     keep trying to get back to where I should be.  Right now I am  just so overwhelmed with thankfulness and awe.                         
       This morning, 2 people that I thought would always be      standing against me in this battle, are now standing WITH       me!  Seriously, just thinking about this is making me cry!         This in itself is a very specific answer to prayer. I believe this   is going to be a major key in turning this situation around.       This morning itself has been more than enough proof that       God is working, but I know that I still need to do my part.  If    you're reading this, and if you pray, please, keep me in your     prayers! It may be at a snail's pace, but I'm trying to find my    way back to God. I've faced condemnation, and I've been          spiritually wounded, but I'm trying. That's what God sees :)       
      I'll post updates as I get them, but I'm warning you now,    it has been an emotional roller coaster, and I expect that it      will continue to be so. All prayers are needed, and greatly        appreciated!!